A simple question..

I have a simple question to ask - Who am I? Can anyone answer this question for me? Please?

I hear a voice in me that goads me to sit down and write this article. Is that voice mine?
Who is talking here? Is that me?

But oh! Wait a minute! There is also another voice which says I should read the newspaper. Now who is this? Is it the same me talking in another voice, just to confuse me. Or is it something else which desires that I read the paper. If it is the same me, then why is it so unstable, jumping from one thing to another. And why is it trying to confuse me, which is nothing but itself. Who is confusing and who is getting confused. My good ness, this is damn confusing!

On the other hand if the second voice is of something else, then is that me? Are there two me’s? Goodness, gracious! This is getting very, very convoluted. uh!

I just cant understand this whole thing. There are multiple things happening with in me. Some thing saying one thing, something else (or is it so?) saying a second thing. And there seems to be a third thing which is watching the fun.

In fact as you read this, what is getting written is coming out of me. So it has to be me too. Do you not agree? Let me prove. The written word here is a an experience happening in me. As long as it stays inside, it is part of me. So the moment it comes out, it cant be something else. So it is me too. Therefore I reside inside as well as outside.

But its not that simple. The moment I erase this article, does it mean I seize to exist outside. Wow! that’s a good question (one that does not have an easy answer!!). Ok, lets resolve it this way – what is inside me is permanent, but what is outside may or may not be. But then, what is inside also changes. In fact, what happens inside is many times due to what happens outside. So the inside and outside are part of the same sequence. So there is possibly no inside and outside. They are both one and the same.

But if that is so, what is that? We go back to the same question we started off with – who am I? Some one please help me answer this question. Or atleast, someone who has found an answer for themselves, please tell me who you are and how did you solve this mysterious riddle. I would really like to know.

But here is lies the great paradox. I just wrote that I would like to know how am I. If I don’t know myself, then how is it that I know it is I who wants to know who I am. The foundation seems to be shaky. I don’t know who I am. But I seem to assume myself in all that I do. How funny?

Funny it may be, but after all this mambo jambo, fact is, I still don’t know who I am. So someone please, please help me out and give me an answer – who am I?